I hope this post isn't registered as a spam, but that is a very very long story.
I joined Chatango in 2014 by simple chance. We were watching Wimbledon from that year with a few other people. Grigor Dimitrov was doing well and no Bulgarian television was broadcasting the tournament! I watched the quarter final against Andy Murray that Grigor won in 3 sets. I noticed some people were chatting in a window next to the game and had no idea about it. I turned out to become quite interested in chatting with them later as also the 2014 Football World Championship was running. So... I clicked on the chatting window... and it brought me there. In the end Dimitrov lost the semi final to Djokovic, even if he had a match point, but that's irrelevant to the topic.
I started meeting all sorts of people in Chatango. Some of you may have been there, they know what a mess that site is. It was the same mess back then. However I saw a few profiles that were saying "role-play". And other stuff. I turned out to meet role-players here and there and so on. Believe or not, I even met my fiancee there. Rest her soul. She died of leukaemia on March 29th 2016.
And... it kinda happened after her death. At that moment I felt the gradual need to start a new life. One day I noticed a girl, who had... a starter for a story for her RP. I wrote the follow-up.... And it began. It was feeling so natural, so fluid, so accurate. In the end I told her that was my first role-play. And she couldn't believe it! I've role-played ever since. Even though I kinda struggle finding long-term partners.
And that was it. Soon enough Chatango started becoming a sinking ship. I created lots of characters, started lots of stories, but often either one of us got busy. I mostly did one-on-ones. I tried groups, but like I said, there is where I need a guide. I won't repeat myself. But I kept on rp-ing. Some partners did stick to me in the long term. Two role-plays there are currently on hold. One, due to my partner being ill - I don't feed high hopes for that, it may be her last RP - and the other, because my partner doesn't really have the time.
However, as I said, Chatango is a sinking ship. I just knew I had to move on at some point. And I ended up here.
Basically role-playing is more than a hobby to me. It's my source of expressing my feelings in general and I don't know how much I'm running away from reality, but I neither am a rock star, nor a sports star. It also is my way of not living in the past and healing after my big loss. It's simply one of the things that came to me to soothe me when my fiancee died. And that's why I don't want it to get out of my life.
So this is my story. Deep and sad, but it also is a story of a man, who always looks for a way to keep on fighting in life.