Worn, dark black leather boots clacked one by one against creamy marble tiles as a woman disappeared from the hallway and into a golden shower filled with intricacies and stained glass windows. Someone like Minerva, bred for nobility, would usually find comfort in the narrow setting, but that was not true. Nostalgia came and went as it pleased. She felt more overwhelmed and exhausted than astounded and breathless. Minerva kneeled down on one knee to feel the long dark blue carpet beneath her fingers and suddenly, she found herself surrounded by her own kind as unpleasant memories flooded in and wrapped around her subconscious mind.
Laughter echoed in the air. Everyone was dressed in their finest clothing made from pure silk and chemise. Three large baroque chandeliers decorated in hundreds of candlesticks and pure gold lit up the room. Minerva felt her body come to a stand still as a familiar girl came into view. She appeared quite young, her eyes were mysterious and gray, nails finely manicured, long raven black hair done up in a complex bun. Minerva stood, stunned at how different she was back then, her uneven shoulders, her downcast eyes, and how much the man across from her seemed to enjoy twisting every last bit of joy from her heart. Minerva felt her heart tighten.
She took his hand without question because that was the right thing to do, because no woman wanted to be shunned or left behind for nothing. Everyone wanted to marry the prince, everyone wanted to be his lover. He was wealthy, he had power. You should've killed him then, Minerva. After you pretended to enjoy the tall cake with lemon and the roasted duck served at your wedding, you should've grabbed your knife and turned to your husband, then stabbed him in the throat. You shouldn't have let him control you and manipulate you so easily. You shouldn't have let him take your happiness away. You know it wasn't fair. Minerva felt her blood pressure begin to peak as she blinked, then suddenly, she was back in the Empyrean palace.
Minerva wondered for a moment if there was anything left in her life, if there was anything worth *living* for. She reached up to touch the necklace Ranger had given her, but quickly found that it was not there. Minerva remembered briefly that she'd decided to not put it on before the battle. Instead of fighting for him, she'd decided to leave him in the dust. Grief and sorrow welled up in the pit of her stomach as her mind swarmed with various flashbacks. She could hear the desperate cries of her child as she left her and Ranger in the dead of night, no moonlight, just clouds and a certain feeling that she was doing something right for herself. I never deserved you. You know this, so why did you stay?
Her past decisions were not right. All she could feel was agony, emptiness, and sheer anger at herself for not doing what was best, for choosing herself over her family. She didn't shed a tear though. There was nothing to cry for. She'd beaten herself up a long time ago to know that when things like this happened, it was better to feel nothing than to feel something. Minerva's mind spinned with regret. I was selfish and I've gained nothing from it. I never got to see them pass away or go to their funeral. This is my punishment. I always think about what could've been. She stood up and clenched her fists. If there was anything she could do for herself, something to help her get over this petrifying feeling, to push herself past regret, it was the sense of power she felt when dominating the palace.
A swift turn of the heel and she headed back out into the hall towards a small commotion of unfamiliar voices. Minerva's hand gripped her sword as she gained on the small lot, talking and devising a plan on what to do next. Fools, she thought, face devoid of emotion as she walked right into the room and pulled out her sword across a man's neck. Blood gushed from the wound as she cleanly severed his head from his shoulders and the other seven came after her. Her sharp blade sung praise as she kicked down another man in the gut, then slashed through the chest of another. Their blood covered her hands and speckled her face while her own blood mixed in. Minerva knew her body was being ripped to pieces, one by one, but she couldn't feel the deep cuts that marred her left leg and slash straight across her stomach.
Blood dribbled down the side of her mouth as she screamed in their faces and thrusted her sword into a man's heart, then cut off the leg of another. Her sword came down on a man's neck as she felt the sharp point of a sword plunge in between her ribs from the back, then pull back out. Minerva spun around and slashed him deep across the throat, then cut across the face of another. This was her war. She was the only one fighting it, the only one savoring every moment of it. Adrenaline pumped through her veins as she fiercely took down the rest of the men and gained more cuts, some deep, others simply a scratch. Minerva huffed as the last man finally fell and she crumbled against the table, fighting to keep her balance. Blood from her stomach wound dripped onto the edges of the layout map. She glanced down at her wounds; they'd gradually begun to stitch back together, but wouldn't close for a while now. Minerva laughed breathlessly for a moment, her tone ominous and bizarre as she focused her attention back on the map.
I'm almost there. I'm almost there.